Spoke to BCH and still no beds available, we have a new date yippee!! Josh will be admitted on Thursday 20th January and will have op on the 21st eek..
The last few weeks have been just awful. not knowing if and when we may get the call, constantly checking phone just in case! Least we have a few more weeks at home unless a bed becomes available and there are no more emergencies.
Its going to be a busy few weeks with Christmas and birthday parties before we know it Josh will be in.So many people have said"least you have Christmas" and it is lovely to be home for Christmas but it doesn't take the anxiety,stress that horrid feeling of handing your child over to the surgical team and not being in control and having no real say what's best for your child.I am dreading that fact of not really being able to put my arms around him and making things better with a special mummy cuddle or Huggle as Josh calls it! its frightening going into unknown again but I keep thinking of all the positives, seeing my baby pink, being able to run with his friends, climb stairs without being puffed! Hopefully have bigger appetite.Just want this to be over in so many ways but so bloody scared its unreal.
I feel so tired because I haven't slept properly for weeks.On a positive note we have booked a holiday to Turkey with our friends Gemma and Ade (Alfie's Mum and Dad)so looking forward to it, so back on the weight watchers hopefully lose another 12lb or a little more!!
Josh had his first school nativity the other week. it was wonderful and how I never cried I will never now.He played a chicken!!he had marigolds on his feet LOL.. I couldn't believe how little he was but still very adorable, cute, gorgeous i could go on but then he is my beautiful son.
Have a wonderful Christmas everyone.xxx
